Light & Puffy Cried-Out Eyes

I have been an adult for the past 7 years.
Let me be the child I couldn't be for just a night.
But even that is too much too ask for in this household.

Chiaroscuro & Sugar Cookies

Having a significant other for this long is strange.
But it's working so far.
So I won't complain.
Plus it's a secret.
So that is all you shall know.

Skinned Knees & Plum Blossoms

happy thanksgiving!
currently,
i'm sitting at my grandmother's,
waiting for dinner!
holidays are so much fun,
i get to have dinner with all of my family.
and right now,
i'm watching 
castle of cagliostro.
a very early done movie by studio ghibli.


so my job shadow was perfect.
it makes me further want to become a teacher.


oh and a new hope in my future,
"to own a club called 'the pothole"
we'd play amazing disco, soul, and other 60s, 70s, and 80s wonders.


lately,
i've been a good reading mood.
i just finished a book called
Fire.
very well written.
now i'm looking for a book called
the glass swallow.
it's written by julia golding,
and i loved her book
dragonfly.
i wish i had more time to read.
i'm assigned to read a lot of bad books in english.
i have to cram to read and finish 
catcher in the rye.
if the book was a person,
we surely wouldn't get along.


eee!
black friday shopping tonight! 
10:30 pm to 10 am! 
all night!


aloe heals burns
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Picture of the Day

i can't stop singing tunes from this

Traffic & Silence

i'm seriously falling behind on this. 
sorry!


okay so for the past few days,
it's been silent in my head. 
but for some reason,
it's not entirely a good thing.
and i can't really explain why.
it's just a gut feeling.


i always love meeting new people,
and this weekend i got to do just that.
and some how, 
a strange 
"fling" 
came out of it.
but it was short.
short and not meant to last.
it's definitely a strange outcome,
to not even have a name to the face.
but for the next few days,
it will just be poking at me 
and poking me. 
i just have to let it go. 


siigghhhhhh.
i hate those weird moments where 
you feel suddenly in need of relationship.
but that doesn't happen to me often.
because i firmly believe that i'm fine by myself. 
relationships are a second hand option for me.


i've been getting into 
researching colleges lately.
so far,
i'm looking into
georgetown u.
fordham u.
manhattan u.
and 
george washington u.
and i want to teach.
just not sure what yet.
primarily english.
but i'm interested in journalism
and philosophy too. 
so hopefully i'll be able to look into those too. 


wet bandaids. 
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Picture of the Day

oh yeah, 

Mister Rogers.

I was on one episode with my mom and sister.

it was about helping,

specifically chores (i think)

Quilts & Coin Jars

alright. 
it's time to do 
a real post for once.


so i took the day off today.
my head has been pounding all throughout the weekend. 
i just want this all to stop.
i feel like two different people
when it comes to school days
and weekends.
if that makes any sense.


lately,
my mind is no where near where it should be.
falling out of the universe.
i should be thinking about my schoolwork,
my junior year,
my expectations to succeed. 
but frankly,
all of that is far 
far
far 
away.
all thinks useful have become
chatter.
my thoughts are not straightened out,
not finished,
incomplete.
they come in sparks,
and once they're triggered,
it's really hard to find a proper distraction. 
usually i have to find 
a book
or website
in which i just take random notes from 
and write them down in my journal.
last night,
i spend nearly 3 hours
just picking up notes from
a website.
it's tiring.
but it helps.


some day's i have really high highs.
and others i have really low lows.
and sometimes its hourly. 
it all just depends on the trigger
and if i can find the right distraction.


trigger chatter distraction.


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Picture of the Day

a few years back,

my family visited Chichen Itza 

the mayan temples in

riviera maya, mexico.

and this was a 180 ft deep sink hole that

tourists were allowed to swim in.

it was the prettiest thing i've ever seen. 

there were little red and black fish that swam in it too.

it was really scary at the same time. 

Notes & Ink

today i found the 
gestalt prayer:


i do my thing and you do your thing.
i am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
and you are not in this world to live up to mine. 
you are you, and i am i, and if by chance we find each other,
it's beautiful,
if not, it can't be helped. 

Radio Frequency & Twine

the chatter has gotten worse.
and lately, 
i could use all the distraction in the world.